Depression

This may get a little heavy for some of you because this gets a little emotional because I have had alot of personal experiences with dEpression. I do not advice commenting on this post because it is very emotional for me and if you comment and I do not understand it correctly then I may get hurt.

Depression affects many people, but everyone has to remember that god is there for them no matter what. He loves you and can help you through anything. Some people foget that fact. This post will show you what happens when you forget God loves you always.

So in my earlier post (love and loss) I told you how I got a little depressed there, it was more than I led you to think. When people call me fat it makes me depressed, when people call me names because of how tall I am I get depressed, just little things like that add on to eachother, and when they all come at once it's not fun to deal with. Last year after the Ottawa trip, the girl I liked was going out with another guy and it made me really depressed because it had happend before and all I could do was think "I guess I'm no good for anyone or anything." So I come back home and call up my grandparents to let them know how my trip was and that so we get to talking about my trip and how it went and stuff like that. The subject then changes on to hockey and my grandparents tell me I'm no good at hockey from the last time they saw me play and how proud they are of my cousin instead. So that's how that phone call ended. Adding more depression onto my plate. So now I start thinking "I'm no good at hockey or any sport." So I go to school the next day thinking about all of that and it leads to a bad day. Everyone in the grade starts calling me bigfoot and skyscraper. So now I think "Oh I'm ugly and I deserve to die." That's right, my depression got so bad to the point I was thinking suicide. Someone foind out about my intentions and told the councilor. So now I have to talk to this councilor about depression. But their are a few more things about me, I am forgetful and I am shy. I can't falt to anyone really well. So I had to use the note app on my iPod to talk with this councilor. She didn't help at all. I forgot about God. I committed a terrible si and forgot about God. The only thing that cured my depression finally was the fact god was with me. Don't take that forgranted, be with God.