Love and loss

Ok. Another thing that alot of people worry about is finding a boy-friend/girl-friend. Just so you know, there are alot of people in the world. You are not ment for all of them. For instance I will give you two of my personal encounters and show you that what I am saying is true. Last year in grade 8, their was this one girl who I thought was perfect. I told her how I felt and she told me strate up that she didn't like me in that way but she still wanted to be friends with me. Now that wasn't bad, I can handle that, but the next two are painful for me. Again, last year after the last girl I tried asking out I thought that I might ask out another girl because I felt lonely and also had an attraction for this girl. So I flirted with her for the longest time, I was nice to her, I was nice to her friends, I was nice to her siblings, I even did alot of things for her. So one night I'm texting her and I tell her how I feel. She says "Oh that's cool, well you might have a chance." and I thought that ment I was golden. For the next two days I am flirting with her at night having a good time and she is leading me on this whole time. The next day she is holding hands and kissing another guy. I was mad but not because I couldn't get the girl, but because she didn't tell me that it wasn't going to work out between us. So this was the last time I was going to take a chance with a girl. I was flirting with this girl all year and doing stuff for her. Well one week before the end of the year trip, I tell her how I feel. She says "Oh, really. That's sweet." and I think that was a good sign. Wrong, she makes me think that I have a shot with her up till the point were in Ottawa and I was going to ask her out to the dance in Ottawa. So we get to the dance and I get up and walk over to her table only to see her holding hands and kissing another guy. I was depressed at that point to no extent. I could of cared less if I died right then and there. But I thought later that night, what would jesus do? And I answered "love me like he has alwaysed done." And that is why you can handle to be with-out a boy-friend/girl-friend for for a long time. It's because god forever more cares and loves you. Just because I have given up on love doesn't mean you should though. I now only love god. But their are more than 3 billion people, one of them will love you, you just have to look.